BODY PAINTING!

OHMYGAWDD, i really like this body painting.





i'm sorry for those pics..

its cool dude! someone's from Indonesia moved to New York, he's going to study there. i don't know exactly who he is. his last name is Setiawan, he's a body painter. and he's so creative!

but i guess, he's not the only body painter. got so many more in this world.




i love all the body paintings, and this is the last..





once again, i'm so sorry for those pics! i think its ART! no one can AVOID it!

i like this picture!!!!

bonne nuit!



i really love it! ohmygod, he's cute love ya!

Supper at a coffee town, both of us, yeah just both of us! We skipped our tryout, its not for the first time actually hahaha.
keep our secret!



i look so ridiculous here! i hate my face..

BOY and FRIENDS, you guys belong with me!

so yesterday, i watched "THE NEXT THREE DAYS" with Renhard and my Boy. I forgot there is Yosep who come to watch with us or not. he was watching with us, but between the time we watched "The next three days" or "the mechanic" haha, sorry I forget Sep. Because you're not That Important for me! woopss: p i'm just kidding

this is it





hey buddy, i love your tricks!


we went to nagoyahill, which is mall that i don't really like, but its okay. I don't know why, every time we were hanging out, we just attracted by like a magnet to the video games room! and as usual, my Boy, Renhard, and Yosep played a video game there. called D5, its kinda boring waiting for Them. sometimes makes me very annoyed and angry. instead, they can't be disturbed. they are too busy with the game until forget WHO tired of waiting.






so much fun there, and finally we had a wonderful dinner at new town.


okay, I've just got back from Megamall Batam Centre, and i was watching "the other guys" at XXI. is pretty good.




but I still like "the mechanic" n "the next three days" i love a type of movie like that actually. they're genius!! GOSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHH

p.s really sorry myBRAM, i dont have a pic of us.

totally dont know

I don't know why I was always making trouble,
and I've promised to no longer mad on you.
I can not change my habit.

I can not stand against you if you have to do this.
you always make my anger out
though I know behind all of this, i'm wrong.
I'm overly sensitive..

i'm totally do not know why I could be like this,
sorry I used to make your day feel no sense. I'm empty without you,
I realized that I could not escape from you..

I am not a patient, even though I had done so many times to held it,
Seriously i'm not THAT type.I was really messed up, I'm upset.
sometimes I regret often say to you that is inappropriate,
but it's directly out of my lips,
as if that was the form of my anger with you.

i thank god, who already gave you to me.
I cant believe it, when I'm bored you're with me,
in every I am confused, you're give me a help.

and now, when I yelled at you, you still say the words "i love you"
and, thats a inappropriate word to say to a girl who hurt you last night.

p.s im sorry, abraham..

what do u think about 24?

im waiting for my 6 months anniversary,
oh damn! cant wait, tomorrow's monday, and tomorrow's 24th January.
anyone Celebrate an anniversary exept me? i guess yes! haha. i love abraham, and release the pent-up feeling in our hearts.
I'm happy,there are no secrets between us.

we're laughing together,
crying together,
and did crazy stuffs together.
we are different, but there's nothing to worry about, as long as we believe in each other.

LOL, tomorrow's biology test! and im not study, seriously.
how i can get a good score! im not expert in biology, and MATH! effffffffffffffff..

so that's all, im still on the phone with my half year boy! loveya!



p.s. i love you, an anniversary is a time to celebrate the joys of today, the memories of yesterday, and the hopes of tomorrow

kakak, sang inspiratorku

suatu hal yang ku banggakan,
bisa mengenal kakak selama setahun lebih,
tak terasa sudah berpisah,
walau sebenarnya hati menyatu,

terkadang ku berpikir ini-itu,
kakak yang bantuin aku dalam menlunturkan semua bimbangku,
kakak sudah lebih tau dunia ini dibanding aku,
desah rindu tersirat dibenakku,
walau hanya dengan kata-kata yang terucap,

banyak insipirasi yang ku terima darimu,
engkau penulis yang sangat handal,
membuat ku kagum atas semua tulisan di blogmu,
tak terasa sudah beberapa bulan tak melihatmu,
melihat hanya sekilas mata memandang,

kak, masih ingat kah kau tentang aku?
kakak seperti bidadari,
mewarnai hidupku,
dari kakak juga aku belajar banyak.

dikamarku, terpajang foto2 cantikmu,
ya, kakak udah kayak artis di hidupku,
walau tak semua orang menyadari,
hidupku adalah kisahku,

sudah berapa kalimat terucap darimu?
sudah berapa pengalaman yang ku terima darimu?
puluhan mungkin ratusan kisah sedih membebaniku,
tapi kakak mungkin sudah 3 kali lipatnya merasakan yang lebih pedih,
kakak selalu berusaha melunturkannya,
saat aku sedih kakak ada.

tak tertahan air mata di pipi mendengar kisah itu,
walau tak sepantasnya ku larang itu,
kakak selamanya dihatiku,
walau tak ada hubungan sedekat dulu diantara kita.

aku sayang sama kakak,
kakak sang inspiratorku,
kak GOGO,
ini semua kutuliskan dengan rintihan rinduku untukmu,
akankah kita bertemu lagi?



p.s. kakak cantik aku kangen

whatcha say

I've told you so many timesssssssssssssss! but you never Want to listen. that consequently you so sick now, right? so how your condition now? Your cough it was like the sound of thunder. do not be sick, you make me sad. You know what it means for me to concern you? because I do not want you to feel lost me. i dont want to make you feel That im gonna leave you soon, no i wont....

BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH
stop talking about that, so about 3 or 4 days ago, i like to do webcaming with him (as you know who), we dance together like crazy, we did stupid things, etc.








this is it, sorry those pictures its not clear enough. ooooooooooopsssssss

i have bad news:

my fishy fishy haad gone forebaah! his name is mole, died on 17th january 2011
R.I.P MOLEEEEEE




CHAAAAAAAAAAAOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! byebye FELLAS

This may be my last love

I want to be with abraham, although my time soon. always carved his name my heart, though sometimes I often make him disappointed. all the best have me do, for a cursory make you happy. I have long waited for a boyfriend like you, who throw away my tears, who would smile when I hurt him.

he's very good, though im not always make him smile. when you're here. I wanna hold you even for a moment. very difficult for me to leave you. never even think about it. I love you as if you loved me..

i would'nt go and you should not be afraid, I've tried not to angry anymore, I've tried to restrain it. I dont know how to express it all, Abraham. i cant create a fucking sweet words, im not talented with that. sorry, i dont know what's your feelin' now, it is reduced? hopefully not!!

funny about abraham..

so funny when I play on Abraham, I said I hurt my kidney inflammation and age its not longer anymorei, only 2 months, he cried. I ask for help daddy text him to say not to tell me about my illness. very funny when I say "im just kidding". Suddenly he and laughing and cannot believe That it was a joke, just for fun. omygod, I Want To see his face while he's crying.

and now maybe he wanted revenge, he want to pinch me and squeezed me like a shirt. beside that, im so happy. he's sweet, I did not expect there's boy who want to cry because he was afraid to leave me.

now I know how much you love me.

LOVE IS ABRAHAM

This is how I feel
Whenever I'm with you
Everything is all about you
Too good to be true

Somehow I just can't believe
You can lay your eyes on me
If this is a fairytale
I wish it will end happily

Even though we are apart I can feel you here next to me
Here and now I will vow, stay with me

Let me love you, Abraham.
With all my heart
You are the one for me
You are the light in my soul
Let me hold you
With my arms
I wanna feel love again
Cause I know,
Love is Abraham.

tryout tryout

hello this is me with abraham.





this when I met him.

and you know what, try out is over. and that's the good news. Wanna know the bad news?

okay this is it:

on Monday will be held try out again, which is all the junior high school in Batam do. the questions different, there are packages A and B, it was a matter of duty. so students can not cheat, and there're so many tryouts to catch up, I'm not ready for the UN, and I do not want to move from Charitas.

but hell yeah, soon I will be entering high school, and I do not know what school should I choose. SMANSA? or Yos Sudarso?

about couple

today I'm happy because today I'm hanging out together perwira harefa, verrah & erwin, daniel puji, renhard, and the most special boyfriend, abraham. haha, we had so much fun at Megamall. we watch a movie at the cinema XXI.

and this verrah, and erwin. they are a sweet couple.



I think, erwin is a good guy. verrah must be love him so much. there're so many movie, and abraham had watced "the tourist" already. and perwira have watched one of the film too. so we decided to watch "BAIK BAIK SAYANG" euw, its not a good movie. its wali band.



one thing that I hate, there is someone who invites his friends to join us. he was not invited and I really hate it. he invites one of his friend (girl), which I do not like. perwira say she's sweet, so how about abraham? I'm afraid he likes her! that's what I'm afraid. sweet girl, and im kinda jealous.

as usual, every hanging out with him there's must be an anger between me and abraham, I'm too sensitive, and I know I was wrong, now the opposite, I become emotional, and abraham become impatient. sometimes I want to change my attitude but somehow he always makes me angry every second and every minute.



daniel is so funny, when he wanted to sit perwira pulled his chair so that daniel fell. people who are quiet immediately laughed loudly when he saw Daniel fall. ohmygod its very funny. and this moment will never forget

TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one


I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

I broke somebody’s heart today

I'm very disappointed today, why do you that much cruel to me? I'm disappointed why do you give more attention to your friend and your playstation more than me? I've been waiting for a long time, but you do not reply my blackberry messenger. I'm very confused what should I do, I cant live without you, you're like my heart so if you've gone, I do not live,

I really do not understand why you act like that.that makes me very angry. I didnt pick up the telephone. I dont even want to hear the speech of bullshit from his mouth. maybe he'll look for my mistakes. he always does, he's also the same. never change.

when I saw the doll (BIGO) from him, my heart melted. at first my mobile network off, so that he can not contact me. I feel very guilty so I switch it on again. now I'm talking on the telephone with him. he cried, which I never see another of my ex. thanks for all, you probably much more patient now than I know abraham at the first .


No more crying, I can’t cry anymore. Don’t take my hand this time, just go. And please don’t look back cause I know if you do, I would come running back to you

BEAUTIFUL IS..............

menurut ku cantik itu relatif, belum tentu pendapat cewek dan cowok tentang cantik itu sama.
menurut aku cantik itu ga perlu mahal, menurut aku pada dasarnya cewek itu cantik. banyak cewek cewek yang biasa2 aja jadi cantik waktu di make up dikit aja.
cewek itu juga bisa cantik kalau dia itu keliatan smart depan banyak orang.
cewek itu cantik kalau dia bisa ngeluarin inner beauty nya.

mungkin cowok itu terkadang lebih milih cewek yang fashionable, yang pinter foto foto, yang jago make up dan segala macem. tapi menurut aku cewek yang fashionable itu cantik karena dia punya banyak baju yang bisa dipakai (jadi setiap moment bajunya beda beda). menurut aku cewek yang fashionable itu kalau pake baju biasa setiap kali juga dia bakal keliatan biasa aja. dia terlihat cantik gara gara baju baju yang dipakainya mendukung,

trus kalau cewek yang pinter foto foto, itu cewek yang photogenic, dia pinter bikin gaya gaya yang imut, cantik, keren dll yang bisa bikin dia keliatan cantik banget, keren banget, dll. tapi kalau kita liat dia dalam kondisi yang biasa aja, juga belum tentu dia cantik. dia hanya cantik di foto.

dan yang terakhir, cewek yang pinter make up, dia bisa atau pinter nutupin bintik bintik di mukanya atau apa aja yang ada dimukanya.

jadi menurut aku, kalau kita bisa nunjukin atau nampilin inner beauty kita, kita pasti keliatan lebih cantik. ga perlu lah fashionable atau make up yg berlebihan.
cukup jadi cewek yang smart, aja udah cantik kok. smart juga artinya bukan pinter di matematika, biologi, fisika,dan lain2 loh. bisa juga kamu pinter dalam berbicara. kamu jadi cewek yang mudah tersenyum aja. ga jutek.

that's all from me, mungkin aku biasa2 aja. tapi cewek apa sih yang gamau cantik??

2011

hello dudes, OH WELL, ITS 2011 AND CHRISTMAS OVEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRR

aku udah selesai sama ulangan semester 1 ku, hasilnya ya gitu lah. ni semester dua harus dikebut belajarnya. mesti kejar tayang, bentar lagi mau Ujian Nasional, harus siap semuanya. libueran semester 1 ini aku ga kemana mana, cuma di Batam aja, tapi bisa dibilang liburan kali ini keliar terus, ya walaupun kena marah, tapi seru. hapeku disita gara2 ga ngankat telfon abangku, soalnya katanya kalo udah jalan aku jadi lupa sama rumah hehe. jadi ya 5 harilah disita hapeku, alhasil ga smsan n telfonan sama abraham. tapi untung pas libursn jadi aku 5 hari disita itu natalan n acara2 terus sama keluarga, jadi masih bisa contact2an sama dia lewat bbm nya adekku (ales)

aku baru aja pulang dari retreatku disekolah. 3 hari 2 malam, sama romo andrei kurniawan. dia dateng dari jakarta. retreatnya seru, yg tadinya musuhan bisa balik lagi lah kayak dulu. sorry for all! semua orang kan punya salah, ga ada yang sempurna sempurna banget. mungkin agak bosen trus ngantuk banget pas pengarahn. tapi ya seru lah.

di retreat aku gabisa tidur, soalnya banyak orang jadi kebanyakan malah cerita cerita. banyak bgt cerita2nya. aku paling pojok dan aku tuh gasuka luas2an, aku sukanya sempit2an. jadi aku sama beatric tidur 1 kasur. aku bawa boneka ku yang super duper gede dari Abrahamku. berat bgt, gara2 itu bonbeka semuanya jadi berat. tapi mau gimana lgi namanya juga sayang sama itu boneka n yang ngasih. HUAHAHAHAHA

aku kangen banget sama kak gogo, pernah aku ketemu dia lgi ngambil tiket/karcis parkir gitu di MMBC, trus aku lagi mau keluar MMBC. mau neriakin manggil dia gabisa udah kejauhan. aku pengen curhat2 kayak dulu. ga ada yang bisa diajak curhat selain dia. menurut aku cuma dia yang bisa ngertiin posisiku diumur 14 ini.

aku cuma pengen pacaran yang bebas, tapi ga tau diri. wajar kali aku pacaran, namanya juga anak remaja. udah mau SMA. tolong lah ngerti, sekarang bukan nya zaman kalian lagi.

So, this is it, foto selama liburan :









MY CUTEY