yes, you guys rock!

Happy Eid Mubarak all, for you guys who celebrate..
forgive others, and open your heart for their mistakes..
and don't forget to forgive me.

okay, so today, i visited Ariza's house,
i met my teacher miss Rossa, and grade 9.
(me highschool already)
i miss them all, haha.

so guys, i want to tell you something,
from deep inside my heart.
how stupid you are??
seems like you guys are losing your heart.
do you know how to treated someone with a good way??

do you know, how to understand someone's feeling?
you look smart, but it doesn't
so pity!

hey, i asked some of you for hanging out today,
because i feel really bored staying at home,
because this is a happy day.
i thought we can hang out together, like in the past.
but it's not.

you seems like don't understand my feeling.
you guys talked in front of me,
you guys are talking about going somewhere.
but why when i asked some of you,
she told me that she wants to go to the other house.
i'm starting to hate you..

you don't remember what we did in the past.
when you were broke up with your boyfriend,
when we cut our bangs together,
how we choosing clothes for going out somewhere,
how you borrow my t-shirt and so do i, etc.

i know, you have A NEW friends,
and maybe you think,

"why i must understand how's maria feeling?
i have so many friends here, if she don't like me, there are so many people here who's starting to hate her."

one of them has promised me to hanging out in this week,
because she want to tell her story,
she promised!!
but she's lying.

i understand if you're not comfortable if i join in your day,
because i have friends too,
i love them.

some of you are my friends from Junior HighSchool,
and some of you are from elementary.
Abraham, Renhard, and Yosep are my new friends.
but the treated me good.

they look like they're my friends since we're born.

and i think you guys are not my friends.
i don't like liar.

thanks for all bitch.

bodoku

hai bodo,
kalau kamu tanya,
berapa kali kamu dateng kepikiran aku,
jujur cuma sekali,
hihi, soalnya kamu ga pergi2 siihh..

kamu itu nakal,
nakal banget,
bener kan posting ku yg sebelum ini?
kamu bandel..
soalnya kalau aku nangis,
kamu itu selalu kasih sejuta alasan,
supaya aku senyum terus

flashback.

jadi sekarang,
timeline di twitter,
penuh sama tweet #flashback
yuk, yuk, ikutan..

pengen cerita dulu ah,
dulu pas aku SD suka banget iket satu,
terus semua aksesorisnya tuh sama warnannya,
hihi.. lucu

terus, suka banget ribut dikelas,
nyanyi2 bareng ovi, adelsha, rezlie dll.
pokoknya yang cewe2.
sampe tuh cowo2 pada marah.
kita mah cuek aja

terus,
aku tuh dulu ngerasa keren,
karna gayaku tuh preman bgt,
tp tetap feminim dong boook.

ada lagi,
waktu aku dihukum ga ngumpulin tugas,
disuruh bikin peta,
jauh2 hari aku udah selesaiin
pas hari H,
petaku ilang.
shit bgt ga tuh bok?

udah ya,
klik ini buat ngeliat tweet #flashback ku..
loves

nakal

belum terpikir,
belum pernah kusangka,
aku begini.
begitu bahagia walau kemalingan..

kamu nakal,
nakal sekali.
mencuri hatiku dan membawanya ntah kemana.

dasar kamu,
setiap aku melihatmu,
kau membuat ku tersipu malu.

kamu,
alasan kenapa aku bisa tersenyum.
tapi kamu nakal..

nakal sekaliiii,
ayo kembalikan hatiku.
berhentilah membuatku melangsa rindu.

kamu maling cakep,
yang jauh di mata dekat di hati,
aku sayang kamu..

god.. please

god, why it's really complicated??
please help me to choose what's the best for me..
it's not about love, it's not about friendship, i don't know..
seriously, i need someone to hold me now.

i don't wanna write here.
thx, loves..

i met her finally

so i just got back from Angkringan Dutamas,
first we (renhard, yosep, abraham, and i) went to MegaMall Batam Centre, for hanging out. but it's not for too long.
as usual, they played d5 in the video game. and i played twice :)

and i'm so happy because i bought 1 necklace, 1 ring, and i headband.
thanks for the one who payed..
but he wanted too, not me :(
i've told him before, i could pay..
but he's refused. but thanks a lot.

luckily, i met kak gogo at Dutamas, she's still pretty.
yeah, i like her style. she likes my dress that i worn.
thanks kak gogo.

i don't care

she'll do

please i don't understand why you did it to her.
you said that you love her,
and it's more than love,
it's bigger.

but now, you just leave her,
and the reason is you can't see her ex sad.
what the hell are you talking about, man?

it's all your fault.

you make her love you that much!
you don't understand.
i know she's crying now.
she's crying out loud.
because of who?
YOU!

can you stop thinking about yourself?

i know you're handsome,
i know you're charming

you can get a better girl.
i hope you feel guilty after this.
she wants you really bad
i know she wants to hug you now,

even you've made mistake

what's going on??

oh well, glad to know that you still love me.
yeah haha. sorry, i'm to obsessed to posting right now.
don't ask me why i keep posting an unnecessary topic,
well i like it, this my blog.
so, so what?

it's a very complicated day,
while i have to choosing my heart's feel, or true love
yeah, i don't know actually what's going on.
just let it flow.
i keep thinking what's next..
it ruined my mind, and you know what.
i got sick, and i have to take a rest.
i pray for the one who is sick now..

my father got sick too, and i pray for him.
and my 1st brother came to take me to church.
but he saw me still laying in my bed,
with an innocent face,
so i can't go to church,
i'm sorry God..
i won't do this anymore.

hey man, you're too childish

hey, we're not child anymore.
we're teenagers now, can you please stop act like we're still 8?
or maybe 9? or 10?

you should think,
you already have hair in you penis!!
(please don't lie!!)
that means you're grown up already..

you don't have to get mad, or do something's crazy like that.
remove someone's from your blackberry contact,
block them on facebook, or even unfollow or block them on twitter.
i think that what kids do, OHMYGOD!!

you're too show off!
think about me, and i'll think about you.
this is life, man!
how old are you?


HAHAHA, go get some milk from your mom!

you: "mommy i want nenen"
mom: "oh here my son"
you: "mommy, am i cute?"
mom: "oh son, you're not cute anymore!"
you: "why mom? *crying*"
mom: "you grown up already, see how many hair in your p?!"
you: "it's only 1000 mom"
mom" "yaiikkss"

oh how i miss them all

remember when i was in junior high school, so many mischief i did.
hahaha, it'll always stay on my mind, i'll never forget it.
i miss them all, i miss how we shared our problems together, how they fall in love,
it's so funny, i miss how they mocking at me etc.
i wish they'll never forget me.

i miss how mr. banu taught us, and ms. heny too.
i miss how they get angry, hahahaaa.
i miss how mr. nugroho flicked our ears,
i miss how mr. kumar with his funny hand writing,
i miss how ms. rossa old us scary stories,
i miss how i don't understand how to do math and physics
etc.

i love charitas, so many experience i received.

hey don't laugh! i know i look so EUW here,
i'm high school already

-peace-

euw

okay hello, let's start writing about my fucked up story in this evening.

i'm just open my fence, and i feel like stepping something,
and it seems big, fat, and chewy.
euw, sounds so disgusting right?
yes it is. it's very disgusting!!

i don't think i can step on a FROG,
can i repeat it?? IT'S A FROG.
an reptil amphibian that i hate sooooooooo much.
first, i really don't like a lizard, cockroach, and rat.

okay, that animals mean a lot to me.
i also got experience from them, that i hope it'll never happpen again.

cockroach:

it happened when i was kid, i'm sleeping in the floor, because my air conditioner broken, and it feels really hot, and i got an idea, so i'm sleeping under the air conditioner, so it feels better.
after an hour, i feel like something moving in my head,
reflexes, i grab it and eat it till i burping,
no, i'm just kidding, i throw it and i smell my hand, and saw what i'm throwing.
you know the answer right??

lizard: it fell in my hand, and it feels so cold.

rat: it it ran through my feet.

YAIKS, THAT'S WHY I DONT LIKE THEM!!!

respect me

i know how old are you, i know how strong are you. i know how's your condition now, and i understand, i'm growing up and i know what i suppose to do,
i have my own way.
can you show me the best you can for teaching how life is, we're living once.

life could be very sad, and sometimes we feel very happy. it also has time. we just wait for it. i'm always waiting when would the good time will come.
i wanna be happy too, same like you all.
exactly you teach me how to teach my children hard later.
hey, could you please respect me?
i can't do anything, because you all think that i won't help.
i just don't know how to stand with so many adult like you!!
you're just loving your self to much, respect me. because i do respect you.

SLEEPY-HEAD

hello all, just woke up from my sleep.
i woke up cause the ring from my blackberry, so many group activities there, some broadcast, PING!!!, text from friends etc.
it's not disturbing, because i like when i woke up there are so many message and mention from twitter etc. i don't like waiting for mention and text.
me so annoying , yes i am!!

so this is me with a pretty oops, i mean sleepy ugly face.
don't laugh, but love it.
yeah, my face so funny.. btw, thanks for reading this and byebye xxx

independence day

happy independence day for my beloved country, Indonesia.

Sometimes, i'm asking myself, am i love my Country?
the answer is, i really love that the fact is Indonesia has so many pretty beach, and has so many islands, so many culture there, and so many sexy asian girls. HAHAHA. and so on.

i want to write about my opinions.
first, i want to comment about our government, it's so bad.
so many corruption. they dont think about others, they don't respect.
their just having theirself happy. they won't see how the poor people live.
they're TORTURED.

see there're so many child hunger, there're so many farmer, fisherman, and etc that really need a help.
Indonesia was 66th years from independence day now, but poorness still exist.

we're rich, but there are so many resources that is not develop.
but i love indonesia culture. i want to visit to all of the beautiful place in my country. i wish it happens

overbored

so i'm overbored, and got nothing to do. i decided to take some pictures from my webcam. it;s just for fun, and i know i'm not pretty there -____-

ya i just post some of it.
hey listen this is me, this is my way to get fun. so don't complaint!
this is my life not yours.
i know i'm not pretty on that pic, and i'm admit it!
THANKS

favour of me!

yeah, some people knows me well, but some don't.
they have to learn, what i like and i hate.
i don't force you to learn about my self, just wanna tell you guys,
that i hate to repeat what i've told to someone twice.
once i think it's very clear, alright. don't ask me till i get mad.
seems like i wanna slap you hard on your face...

fashion - ZOOEY

she can't get out from my mind, i really love how she choose a costume.
she always look very pretty and girly, it's vintage.
zoeey i wish you're my sister..

awesome, see??
she's my wonder sister. pretty!
i wish i could meet her someday..

i'm so into her

Uniquely quirky !
can describe Zooey Deschanel. She do have talents as an Actress, Musician, and Singer-Song writer. She also have taste in fashion. Love her style because that so damn vintage yet original
.
Also, she's totally talented with her lovely voice and her capability to write her own song with the band called She and Him.
So unique and adorable. I love how weird her video is. And I'm wondering how she could have an awkward expression for the most of the video.

But she still cute, though. And ooh, most of their song have 50's atmosphere. Her voice is perfectly fit for this kinda music.

However, I'm sick with the comparison between Zooey and Katy, even I love them both. I hope people can stop bring it up to the top of conversation anymore.




click here for watch SOME OF HER VIDS.

love and seperate

"this is not really my story, but you can learn from what i learned."

i don't know where i could start this, so maybe i'm going to write from here.

"what if a boy or girl that you love the most, start to hate or start to go away from you?"

if i was in that position, i will really sad and maybe i'll start to cry. but i realize that this is a life, you're living in it. and we should know how's the feeling if someone's mad at you, or love you, etc.

i want to write about loving someone too..
guys, you all should remember that we live in this world once, you should appreciate of it, because life is the most important thing. you should color your life with cheerful. don't waste it.

and it doesn't wrong if you love someone, it's normal.
but don't too much, if they leave you, you should THINK that there are million boys or girl in this world, he's not the one.
and you should realize too, that if you;re starting to love someone or even having them, note this:

"where there was a meeting there must be separation"

you're not alone in this world, God's hold your hand always and always. submit your worry to God.

the everlasting love is GOD, for example you get married,

"there must be separation, too, because there is death which will separate"

if you love someone, you should learn to lose them, because you don't have it forever.

myself

i really love myself, and i don't accept if i got torment. i know what i'm doing without anybody disturbing me. i know what i'm suppose to do. please don't disturb me while i don't want to speak to anybody.

everybody has a problem, that maybe secret, or not, and they just want to keep it in their mind. so nobody knows. i have my own problems, i have my own secrets, i got it all. and once i say no, it means no.

please don't ask me stupid and shit questions. it makes me really messed up. if you trying to make me smile again or back in to normal, you should have a perfect time to talk to me.

you don't have to ask me every time, and i always answer no! but you keep and keep asking and give shit words for me. it's not make me feel better.

exactly you make my problems build up! i know myself, i'm not really an emosional person. and i don't like acting cute when i know i'm not.

you can look at my face, once i got angry, i angry. once i disappointed, i disappointed. when i don't want to talk, please don't talk to me or even call my name.

seriously, i have problems. so you don't have to know all about my OWN PROBLEMS, i grown up, and i can fix my problems by myself. once i need someone to help, i'll ask them. but not now, because i know you're not interfered with this.

i want to tweet to all of my friends without any obstacle
i want to have my ex contact without you have to delete them all
i want to hang out with my friends if there's boy or not.
i don't like if you're join in my problems
i don't like you're angry with my friend (actually, you're not my parent)
i don't like being that tortured


SO PLEASE GO AWAY, PROBLEMS!!!
I JUST WANNA BE ALONE NOW. DON'T DISTURB

i think friendship will never end baby

I'd like to be the sort of friend that
you have been to me;
I'd like to be the help that
you've been always glad to be;

I'd like to mean as much to you
each minute of the day
As you have meant, old friend of mine,
to me along the way.

I'd like to do the big things and
the splendid things for you,
To brush the gray from out your skies
and leave them only blue;

I'd like to say the kindly things that
I so oft have heard,
And feel that I could rouse your soul
the way that mine you've stirred.

I'd like to give you back the joy
that you have given me,
Yet that were wishing you a need
I hope will never be;

I'd like to make you feel as rich as I,
who travel on
Undaunted in the darkest hours with you to
lean upon.

I'm wishing at this time that I
could but repay
A portion of the gladness that
you've strewn along my way;

And could I have one wish this year,
this only would it be:
I'd like to be the sort of friend
that you have been to me.