i miss you how we supposed to be together

I ask myself why am I thinking of you so much.
I think about all the moments we shared together and the way we touched.
You know that this was hard for me,
but you decided not to see.

I know I’m still stuck in my past,
but I had a feeling that this was going to last.
I guess my heart was wrong,
Why couldn't I live trough it and not stay strong.
Thinking of you makes me feel this way.

"Why couldn’t I just stay".
I ask myself that everyday.
Hold on!! I had a reason why?
Now that I think of it I want to cry.
Still feeling you so much.
I still think of the moment when we touch.

dont make me love you more, cause i'm not ready for that

Don't make me love you till I'm ready
Don't make me give you more than my kisses
I need you to go slow and steady

Why you wanna rush into my life
Don't you wanna stop and get to know me better
We got all the time in the world tonight
And if we're meant to be we'll be together,
Stay around just slow it down
Till we find out if we got what it takes

Everything I know about you so far
Makes me believe that you're the one for me
But there's still a lot that's on my mind
And I need time before we go further

Don't you see
So hold me, fold me, but don't be
Thinking I don't want you too

i love you so much dear

why arent you here with me? why cant you see that we're meant to be? i need you so much cant you see? that your prescense is the only key that can let my heart stop to bleed but i guess i got to wait with all these tears running down my face ill wait until things change and deal with all this pain but without you its not the same im tired of playing this stupid game why is it so hard to let you go? what do i have to do to let you know? with you not here time passes by so slow many guys pass by telling me lies but you still happen to be on my mind my freinds think you are nothing but to me you are a blessing to think of you is all i can do from the begginning of the day until the sun sets away to forget about you there is no way no matter what other people have to say maybe ill have patience to wait for you but until then ill try to stay true for you

That your warmth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

never told you...

i miss those brown, how you kiss at night
i miss the way we sleep,
like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your mile
i miss the way we breath

but i never told you, what i should have said
np, i never told you,
i just held it in.

and i miss everything about you
can believe it i still want you
and after all the things we've been trough
i miss everything about you,
without you....

i see your brown eyes, every time i close mine
you make it hard to see
where i belong to, when i'm not around you
it's like i'm not with me

:)

i've been living alone
trying to get you out of my life
but after all this time
i can't help myself 


you're once a dream that came true
an illusion that turned to reality
but suddenly, things turned differently
the way they used to be

until such time i have no choice but to let you go
you're the reason for my sleepless nights
because you keep stayin' on my mind
i can't help myself from crying
cause i'm missing you so much.

ijinkan aku Tuhan

kamu, seseorang yang datang dan pergi

kamu, yang pernah mengisi hari hari.
kini,aku tersenyum melihatmu,
jauh disana tak menentu.

benci dendam yang tak tertanamkan,
rindu gundah yang tak tertahankan,
mendukung saksi cintaku padamu,
dulu dan sekarang.

sungguh tak bermaksud ku memaksa,
aku tak ingin engkau kembali,
hanya hati ini yang mengetahui,
tak terasa waktu berlalu,
meninggalkan masa yang telah lewat,
dan kita menempuh kedepan nya.

lihatlah tanggal berapa sekarang.
kini aku tersenyum,
dapat menyaksikanmu dengan yang lain.
lihat betapa cantiknya wanita idamanmu itu,
tak seperti aku.

aku menerimanya,
apa yang kamu katakan padaku itu benar,
sungguh, kamu lelaki egois,
tak bertanggung jawab.
sungguh kamu munafik,
kamu sungguh kejam.
membuat ku manja sekarang,
bagai anak kecil yang merengek minta dibelikan boneka.

aku bahagia pada diriku,
yang begitu kuat menahan rasa benci ini.
karena sungguh ku tak pantas membenci org sebaik kamu,
bertanyakah kamu dalam hati tentang apa yang kupikirkan?
jujur, itu kamu.

tapi sungguh aku tak berharap kau kembali.
yang ku pikirkan hanya mengapa engkau begitu mudahnya pergi.
engkau egois,
melupakan ku, dan tak bertanggung jawab akan apa isi hatiku.

aku berharap kau mau menerima ku suatu saat nanti,
apabila mnemang kau jodoh yang dipertemukan Tuhan kembali untuk aku.
aku bangga Tuhan memberi ujian ini kepadaku,
berarti Tuhan tau aku bisa melewati ini,
dan Tuhan tau lemahku.

aku bukan lah seorang putitis,
aku bukan lah seorang dokter cinta,
sekalipun itu aku,
aku pun tak dapat mengobati perih ini.

tulisan ini berdasar kan apa yang ku pikirkan,
tak menentu arah tujuanku,
aku harap aku bahagia tanpa mu.
jika memang aku membohongi perasaan ini,
biarlah Tuhan kuatkan ku,
tuk melupakanmu yang seharusnya jauh jauh jauh,
pergi dari kehidupanku.

sungguh ingin ku peluk dirimu.

yaela.

Ya ampun Tuhan,
ga nyangka ya dia kyk gitu.
duh aku ketawa nih sekarang.
katanya inisialnya itu,
sekarang ini.

duh serius deh,
tipe cowok ga laku gitu tuh.
btw Tuhan, aku curhat aja ya.
lucu bgt yaaaa, dia ngebuka blog ku.
ya ampun, thanks ya God,
berarti dia masih ngecheck timelineku,
hahahaha perhatian bgt sih si bodo itu.
Go to the Blok

like seriously,
he's very stupid.
ga laku gitu tuh.
sok2 nyayangin org gajelas,
biar namanya ga berubah berubah dimata org,
duuuuh Tuhan, sadarin dong tampang nya.

sorry ya bram! lu pikir aku susah lepasin lo?
bisa aja kali, ada yg lain juga,
lagian elu perhatian bgt ya buka blogku, thx a lot buddy!!!!!!
jgn lo pikir di otak gw cuma bisa mikirin lo doang.
syg nya lo terlalu ga pantes buat diinget.
lemme laugh. HA HA HA HA 

thanks.

Tuhan, terimakasih Engkau sungguh baik,
Tuhan masih mau memberikan aku pikiran yg baik pula.
Tuhan, aku bukan perempuan jahat,
aku gamau punya musuh, biarlah orang membenciku,
tapi aku tak pernah punya maksud begitu.
kalaupun aku harus membenci nya,
sadarkan aku Tuhan,
aku tak sepantasnya seperti itu.

aku mengakui, dia pernah menjadi bagian dr hidup aku,
tak semudah itu melupakan kenangan itu,
walaupun hatiku tlah jauh melupakannya.
aku ingat saat bersama,
sedih bersama, senang bersama,
semua dilakukan berdua,
menolong tanpa pamrih,
perhatian satu dgn yang lain.

aku akui aku pernah sangat mencintainya.
sadarkan dia Tuhan,
biarlah dia pergi jauh dr kehidupan ku,
tapi sekiranya moment moment yg kami jalani tetap teringat di angan nya.
tak perlu dia ada disampingku,
tak perlu harus ada rasa dia mencintaku lagi,
aku hanya tidak ingin dibenci.

Tuhan, aku manusia biasa,
aku banyak kesalahan, aku punya kekurangan,
dan aku tau, Tuhan sudah berikan kelebihan juga untuk aku,
termasuk tdk membenci org yg telah membenciku.

Tuhan, sadarkanlah, dia juga punya kesalahan,
kesalahan besar yg di hadapkan nya padaku,

aku mengaku pernah bersalah,
dan aku minta maaf. tak selamanya
org bersikap buruk, selamanya akan trus begitu.
aku percaya, aku bisa lebih kuat dr ini.

aku bisa senang2 sekarang,
tanpa harus memikirkan yg sudah berlalu,
tak kusangka secepat itu dia melupakan. ikuti hatimu,
jangan bohongi dia.

kau akan merasakan sakit dr ini,
jangan mencoba membenci ku kalau sesungguhnya kamu tidak bisa,
aku mohon jgn benci aku,
krn kamu tlah membohongi apa yg hatimu katakan,

Tuhan, jadikan aku wanita yg baik, tidak seperti mereka,
yg hny ngomongin org,
tetapi tidak pernah mengoreksi diri.
Tuhan, ini tulisan terakhir tentangnya, Mantanku,
semoga ini memang akhirnya.
semoga memang akan selalu begitu.

Tuhan apabila memang dia jodohku,
kembalikan dia suatu saat nanti,
apabila dia bukan jodohku,
sekiranya jangan biarkan hati ini terbuka kembali untuknya.

Aku gamau merasakan sakit seperti ini untuk yg kesekian kali.
mengakulah, kau pernah berkata aku CANTIK bukan?
hahaha, terimakasih.
kuakui, kau sempat memiliki hatiku penuh,
tapi tidak untuk sekarang,
aku kan melupakanmu,
tetapi tidak kenangan itu. makasih ya mantan terindah untuk saat ini.

(aku tau, kau takkan merespon ini, bahkan mungkin kau jijik, tetapi aku percaya, suatu saat nanti kau bisa lebih dewasa drpd ini)

get well soon

buat kamu yang terbaring lemah dirumah sakit, kamu nakal udah buat aku kuatir, kamu berhasil buat aku sedih, buat kami temen-temen kamu ga tega liat kamu kayak gitu, what's wrong with you? jangan buat hal yang bodoh lagi.. nyesel ga kayak gitu? dasar tukang kentut. hari ini aku seneng bisa buat kamu kuat, bisa buat kamu tahan sama sakit yang kamu rasain, i'm very proud of being me. aku gakuat liat kamu ampe kejang-kejang gitu, kamu manja, manjaaaa banget. ga bolehin aku pulang. thanks buat mama kamu yang udah baik sama aku. yang mau perhatian meskipun aku bukan anaknya. thanks kamu juga mau perhatian meskipun kamu sakit, sorry udah bikin kamu sakit terus, hehehe, gara gara infus nya kesentuh aku mulu. panjang banget selang yang dimasukin ke hidung kamu, trus berlanjut ke lambung kamu, ga kebayang gimana sakitnya muntah separah itu, muntah darah, obat, lendir dan lain-lain yang jelas jelas belum tentu aku tabah jalanin nya. tapi kamu beda, kamu kuat, itu yang buat aku kagum sama kamu, ternyata si manja ini hebat banget. walaupun ada cingeng engeng engeng nyaa :p tapi aku salut, kasian banget liat mama kamu sampe kuatir segitunya, makanya jangan gila! jangan ngelakuin hal yang ngancurin diri kamu sendiri, sayangi diri kamu. kamu masih banyak yang ngebutuhin, bukan keluarga kamu aja, kami temen temen kamu juga butuh kamu. kamu anak nya baik, aku seneng.

Tuhan sayang sama elu bram

buat Abraham, cepet sembuh yaaaa. God Loves You, DUDE!!!

yes, you guys rock!

Happy Eid Mubarak all, for you guys who celebrate..
forgive others, and open your heart for their mistakes..
and don't forget to forgive me.

okay, so today, i visited Ariza's house,
i met my teacher miss Rossa, and grade 9.
(me highschool already)
i miss them all, haha.

so guys, i want to tell you something,
from deep inside my heart.
how stupid you are??
seems like you guys are losing your heart.
do you know how to treated someone with a good way??

do you know, how to understand someone's feeling?
you look smart, but it doesn't
so pity!

hey, i asked some of you for hanging out today,
because i feel really bored staying at home,
because this is a happy day.
i thought we can hang out together, like in the past.
but it's not.

you seems like don't understand my feeling.
you guys talked in front of me,
you guys are talking about going somewhere.
but why when i asked some of you,
she told me that she wants to go to the other house.
i'm starting to hate you..

you don't remember what we did in the past.
when you were broke up with your boyfriend,
when we cut our bangs together,
how we choosing clothes for going out somewhere,
how you borrow my t-shirt and so do i, etc.

i know, you have A NEW friends,
and maybe you think,

"why i must understand how's maria feeling?
i have so many friends here, if she don't like me, there are so many people here who's starting to hate her."

one of them has promised me to hanging out in this week,
because she want to tell her story,
she promised!!
but she's lying.

i understand if you're not comfortable if i join in your day,
because i have friends too,
i love them.

some of you are my friends from Junior HighSchool,
and some of you are from elementary.
Abraham, Renhard, and Yosep are my new friends.
but the treated me good.

they look like they're my friends since we're born.

and i think you guys are not my friends.
i don't like liar.

thanks for all bitch.

bodoku

hai bodo,
kalau kamu tanya,
berapa kali kamu dateng kepikiran aku,
jujur cuma sekali,
hihi, soalnya kamu ga pergi2 siihh..

kamu itu nakal,
nakal banget,
bener kan posting ku yg sebelum ini?
kamu bandel..
soalnya kalau aku nangis,
kamu itu selalu kasih sejuta alasan,
supaya aku senyum terus

flashback.

jadi sekarang,
timeline di twitter,
penuh sama tweet #flashback
yuk, yuk, ikutan..

pengen cerita dulu ah,
dulu pas aku SD suka banget iket satu,
terus semua aksesorisnya tuh sama warnannya,
hihi.. lucu

terus, suka banget ribut dikelas,
nyanyi2 bareng ovi, adelsha, rezlie dll.
pokoknya yang cewe2.
sampe tuh cowo2 pada marah.
kita mah cuek aja

terus,
aku tuh dulu ngerasa keren,
karna gayaku tuh preman bgt,
tp tetap feminim dong boook.

ada lagi,
waktu aku dihukum ga ngumpulin tugas,
disuruh bikin peta,
jauh2 hari aku udah selesaiin
pas hari H,
petaku ilang.
shit bgt ga tuh bok?

udah ya,
klik ini buat ngeliat tweet #flashback ku..
loves

nakal

belum terpikir,
belum pernah kusangka,
aku begini.
begitu bahagia walau kemalingan..

kamu nakal,
nakal sekali.
mencuri hatiku dan membawanya ntah kemana.

dasar kamu,
setiap aku melihatmu,
kau membuat ku tersipu malu.

kamu,
alasan kenapa aku bisa tersenyum.
tapi kamu nakal..

nakal sekaliiii,
ayo kembalikan hatiku.
berhentilah membuatku melangsa rindu.

kamu maling cakep,
yang jauh di mata dekat di hati,
aku sayang kamu..

god.. please

god, why it's really complicated??
please help me to choose what's the best for me..
it's not about love, it's not about friendship, i don't know..
seriously, i need someone to hold me now.

i don't wanna write here.
thx, loves..

i met her finally

so i just got back from Angkringan Dutamas,
first we (renhard, yosep, abraham, and i) went to MegaMall Batam Centre, for hanging out. but it's not for too long.
as usual, they played d5 in the video game. and i played twice :)

and i'm so happy because i bought 1 necklace, 1 ring, and i headband.
thanks for the one who payed..
but he wanted too, not me :(
i've told him before, i could pay..
but he's refused. but thanks a lot.

luckily, i met kak gogo at Dutamas, she's still pretty.
yeah, i like her style. she likes my dress that i worn.
thanks kak gogo.

i don't care

she'll do

please i don't understand why you did it to her.
you said that you love her,
and it's more than love,
it's bigger.

but now, you just leave her,
and the reason is you can't see her ex sad.
what the hell are you talking about, man?

it's all your fault.

you make her love you that much!
you don't understand.
i know she's crying now.
she's crying out loud.
because of who?
YOU!

can you stop thinking about yourself?

i know you're handsome,
i know you're charming

you can get a better girl.
i hope you feel guilty after this.
she wants you really bad
i know she wants to hug you now,

even you've made mistake

what's going on??

oh well, glad to know that you still love me.
yeah haha. sorry, i'm to obsessed to posting right now.
don't ask me why i keep posting an unnecessary topic,
well i like it, this my blog.
so, so what?

it's a very complicated day,
while i have to choosing my heart's feel, or true love
yeah, i don't know actually what's going on.
just let it flow.
i keep thinking what's next..
it ruined my mind, and you know what.
i got sick, and i have to take a rest.
i pray for the one who is sick now..

my father got sick too, and i pray for him.
and my 1st brother came to take me to church.
but he saw me still laying in my bed,
with an innocent face,
so i can't go to church,
i'm sorry God..
i won't do this anymore.

hey man, you're too childish

hey, we're not child anymore.
we're teenagers now, can you please stop act like we're still 8?
or maybe 9? or 10?

you should think,
you already have hair in you penis!!
(please don't lie!!)
that means you're grown up already..

you don't have to get mad, or do something's crazy like that.
remove someone's from your blackberry contact,
block them on facebook, or even unfollow or block them on twitter.
i think that what kids do, OHMYGOD!!

you're too show off!
think about me, and i'll think about you.
this is life, man!
how old are you?


HAHAHA, go get some milk from your mom!

you: "mommy i want nenen"
mom: "oh here my son"
you: "mommy, am i cute?"
mom: "oh son, you're not cute anymore!"
you: "why mom? *crying*"
mom: "you grown up already, see how many hair in your p?!"
you: "it's only 1000 mom"
mom" "yaiikkss"

oh how i miss them all

remember when i was in junior high school, so many mischief i did.
hahaha, it'll always stay on my mind, i'll never forget it.
i miss them all, i miss how we shared our problems together, how they fall in love,
it's so funny, i miss how they mocking at me etc.
i wish they'll never forget me.

i miss how mr. banu taught us, and ms. heny too.
i miss how they get angry, hahahaaa.
i miss how mr. nugroho flicked our ears,
i miss how mr. kumar with his funny hand writing,
i miss how ms. rossa old us scary stories,
i miss how i don't understand how to do math and physics
etc.

i love charitas, so many experience i received.

hey don't laugh! i know i look so EUW here,
i'm high school already

-peace-

euw

okay hello, let's start writing about my fucked up story in this evening.

i'm just open my fence, and i feel like stepping something,
and it seems big, fat, and chewy.
euw, sounds so disgusting right?
yes it is. it's very disgusting!!

i don't think i can step on a FROG,
can i repeat it?? IT'S A FROG.
an reptil amphibian that i hate sooooooooo much.
first, i really don't like a lizard, cockroach, and rat.

okay, that animals mean a lot to me.
i also got experience from them, that i hope it'll never happpen again.

cockroach:

it happened when i was kid, i'm sleeping in the floor, because my air conditioner broken, and it feels really hot, and i got an idea, so i'm sleeping under the air conditioner, so it feels better.
after an hour, i feel like something moving in my head,
reflexes, i grab it and eat it till i burping,
no, i'm just kidding, i throw it and i smell my hand, and saw what i'm throwing.
you know the answer right??

lizard: it fell in my hand, and it feels so cold.

rat: it it ran through my feet.

YAIKS, THAT'S WHY I DONT LIKE THEM!!!

respect me

i know how old are you, i know how strong are you. i know how's your condition now, and i understand, i'm growing up and i know what i suppose to do,
i have my own way.
can you show me the best you can for teaching how life is, we're living once.

life could be very sad, and sometimes we feel very happy. it also has time. we just wait for it. i'm always waiting when would the good time will come.
i wanna be happy too, same like you all.
exactly you teach me how to teach my children hard later.
hey, could you please respect me?
i can't do anything, because you all think that i won't help.
i just don't know how to stand with so many adult like you!!
you're just loving your self to much, respect me. because i do respect you.

SLEEPY-HEAD

hello all, just woke up from my sleep.
i woke up cause the ring from my blackberry, so many group activities there, some broadcast, PING!!!, text from friends etc.
it's not disturbing, because i like when i woke up there are so many message and mention from twitter etc. i don't like waiting for mention and text.
me so annoying , yes i am!!

so this is me with a pretty oops, i mean sleepy ugly face.
don't laugh, but love it.
yeah, my face so funny.. btw, thanks for reading this and byebye xxx

independence day

happy independence day for my beloved country, Indonesia.

Sometimes, i'm asking myself, am i love my Country?
the answer is, i really love that the fact is Indonesia has so many pretty beach, and has so many islands, so many culture there, and so many sexy asian girls. HAHAHA. and so on.

i want to write about my opinions.
first, i want to comment about our government, it's so bad.
so many corruption. they dont think about others, they don't respect.
their just having theirself happy. they won't see how the poor people live.
they're TORTURED.

see there're so many child hunger, there're so many farmer, fisherman, and etc that really need a help.
Indonesia was 66th years from independence day now, but poorness still exist.

we're rich, but there are so many resources that is not develop.
but i love indonesia culture. i want to visit to all of the beautiful place in my country. i wish it happens

overbored

so i'm overbored, and got nothing to do. i decided to take some pictures from my webcam. it;s just for fun, and i know i'm not pretty there -____-

ya i just post some of it.
hey listen this is me, this is my way to get fun. so don't complaint!
this is my life not yours.
i know i'm not pretty on that pic, and i'm admit it!
THANKS

favour of me!

yeah, some people knows me well, but some don't.
they have to learn, what i like and i hate.
i don't force you to learn about my self, just wanna tell you guys,
that i hate to repeat what i've told to someone twice.
once i think it's very clear, alright. don't ask me till i get mad.
seems like i wanna slap you hard on your face...

fashion - ZOOEY

she can't get out from my mind, i really love how she choose a costume.
she always look very pretty and girly, it's vintage.
zoeey i wish you're my sister..

awesome, see??
she's my wonder sister. pretty!
i wish i could meet her someday..

i'm so into her

Uniquely quirky !
can describe Zooey Deschanel. She do have talents as an Actress, Musician, and Singer-Song writer. She also have taste in fashion. Love her style because that so damn vintage yet original
.
Also, she's totally talented with her lovely voice and her capability to write her own song with the band called She and Him.
So unique and adorable. I love how weird her video is. And I'm wondering how she could have an awkward expression for the most of the video.

But she still cute, though. And ooh, most of their song have 50's atmosphere. Her voice is perfectly fit for this kinda music.

However, I'm sick with the comparison between Zooey and Katy, even I love them both. I hope people can stop bring it up to the top of conversation anymore.




click here for watch SOME OF HER VIDS.

love and seperate

"this is not really my story, but you can learn from what i learned."

i don't know where i could start this, so maybe i'm going to write from here.

"what if a boy or girl that you love the most, start to hate or start to go away from you?"

if i was in that position, i will really sad and maybe i'll start to cry. but i realize that this is a life, you're living in it. and we should know how's the feeling if someone's mad at you, or love you, etc.

i want to write about loving someone too..
guys, you all should remember that we live in this world once, you should appreciate of it, because life is the most important thing. you should color your life with cheerful. don't waste it.

and it doesn't wrong if you love someone, it's normal.
but don't too much, if they leave you, you should THINK that there are million boys or girl in this world, he's not the one.
and you should realize too, that if you;re starting to love someone or even having them, note this:

"where there was a meeting there must be separation"

you're not alone in this world, God's hold your hand always and always. submit your worry to God.

the everlasting love is GOD, for example you get married,

"there must be separation, too, because there is death which will separate"

if you love someone, you should learn to lose them, because you don't have it forever.

myself

i really love myself, and i don't accept if i got torment. i know what i'm doing without anybody disturbing me. i know what i'm suppose to do. please don't disturb me while i don't want to speak to anybody.

everybody has a problem, that maybe secret, or not, and they just want to keep it in their mind. so nobody knows. i have my own problems, i have my own secrets, i got it all. and once i say no, it means no.

please don't ask me stupid and shit questions. it makes me really messed up. if you trying to make me smile again or back in to normal, you should have a perfect time to talk to me.

you don't have to ask me every time, and i always answer no! but you keep and keep asking and give shit words for me. it's not make me feel better.

exactly you make my problems build up! i know myself, i'm not really an emosional person. and i don't like acting cute when i know i'm not.

you can look at my face, once i got angry, i angry. once i disappointed, i disappointed. when i don't want to talk, please don't talk to me or even call my name.

seriously, i have problems. so you don't have to know all about my OWN PROBLEMS, i grown up, and i can fix my problems by myself. once i need someone to help, i'll ask them. but not now, because i know you're not interfered with this.

i want to tweet to all of my friends without any obstacle
i want to have my ex contact without you have to delete them all
i want to hang out with my friends if there's boy or not.
i don't like if you're join in my problems
i don't like you're angry with my friend (actually, you're not my parent)
i don't like being that tortured


SO PLEASE GO AWAY, PROBLEMS!!!
I JUST WANNA BE ALONE NOW. DON'T DISTURB

i think friendship will never end baby

I'd like to be the sort of friend that
you have been to me;
I'd like to be the help that
you've been always glad to be;

I'd like to mean as much to you
each minute of the day
As you have meant, old friend of mine,
to me along the way.

I'd like to do the big things and
the splendid things for you,
To brush the gray from out your skies
and leave them only blue;

I'd like to say the kindly things that
I so oft have heard,
And feel that I could rouse your soul
the way that mine you've stirred.

I'd like to give you back the joy
that you have given me,
Yet that were wishing you a need
I hope will never be;

I'd like to make you feel as rich as I,
who travel on
Undaunted in the darkest hours with you to
lean upon.

I'm wishing at this time that I
could but repay
A portion of the gladness that
you've strewn along my way;

And could I have one wish this year,
this only would it be:
I'd like to be the sort of friend
that you have been to me.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ME :)

happy bird-day to Aria (ABRAHAMARIA)
thank God, that i could make this happened. this is for the first time! and i'm so glad that you gave me a surprise that makes me really happy..
make it last baby..

when the first time i saw you, seriously i fell in love with you. thanks for all your surprises in this year, thanks for making me cried. i know, i'll be a strong girl someday. thanks for making me smile in this year, you make me like the happiest girl in this world.

sorry for the greeting card. i know that's not really good.
but deep inside i made it with heart and love..
i love you baby, i adore you baby, WE CAN MAKE IT LAST!

"Je t'aime. Je souhaite vous serez là quand j'ai besoin de toi"

"BABY I WANNA BE YOUR CINDERELLA"

school life

i don't why that boy always disturbing me. he's sit beside me, and seems like i wanna punch him of. till his face is like coconut (?) Fvck!
seriously, i never hit you or teasing you till you always disturbing me while i'm talking with my friend. you're such a boring boy. nice nickname huh?

okay, maybe the real school's started, which is a good classmate, gossip girls, talkative teacher, a funny classmate, best friend, hostility, etc.
that's a school life, right??

"As long as there are tests, there will be prayer in schools."

my sucks second day

it was very tiring.. so tired!! i must find a signatures from the committee.. one of them is really hard to share his sign. and it makes me really dizzy.
tomorrow is the last day, and we're going to the industry. i dont know where.. haha

and you know what? on the second day, i got late!!! fiuh, there are my friends whose late too. THANKS GOD

first day at my new school

so its been along time since my last post right? now im going to tell you guys, that this is my first day at school. maybe it takes to long you all to read, so i'm just tell you a bit.

first, i would like to choose a normal high school (like you all. studying about math, science, history, etc). but i would like having differences. so i choose a vocational school. i wanna have a skill, so it makes me easy for having a job later in my life.and i think this is more comfortable for me.
so guys, i'm a new student here. and the called me "NADYA" lol that's so funny.
and tomorrow i'll having a second day, for my orientation.
to be honest, that's really tiring and boring.

almost forgot, i choose SMK REAL INFORMATIKA.

i dont have a pic of my orientation day, and a pic of me like a stupid jerk.
God Bless Me

happily, there's david leo who's in a level 2. so i'm not really alone there. he's funny and sometime's act like stupid. actually, i'm not a quite girl, i'm really attractive. maybe because the way i sit it's not pleasant.

i think it's enough.. capsss!!! byebye

here we go kitty kitty

my internet connection sucks, so i can't even check my blog, my facebook (photos that people tagged) hahaha.and i had so much fun when we i was at Turi Beach. we had FAREWELL party there. let me show you guys the pictures..

this is the first day. look at our face! so happy :D
so sad when we know that we're only staying for one day.

after we're playing games (FUNDAY)......................... *drumroll*

BANANA BOAT-ING! YEHEEYYYY..
sadly, my my feet hurt. i dont know why, but this is the same pain when i was in Thailand for holiday with Adelsha. you know whst i can't even sleep!! sitting, standing, sleeping it's not decrease my pain. fvck!!!
the same reason too, cause of playing the banana boat!!

could you be my best brother? oh please!

hello, best day ever!!!! FVCK my brother told me that i'm telling him a lie! what the fuck, i cant show you guys how's my feeling now. it's up to him! glad to know he trusts me, but if he's not, what am i suppose to do? NOTHING!
hey, do you know? it's really boring having a brother like him! he's not like my younger brother, he's more flexible. but WHATTHEFUCK is that, i don't care.

should i put sandals into your mouth? hah? should i? so shut the fuck up!!
why he should move here? BATAM! could you just move somewheere that i can't even see you! just move to afghanistan or NORTH POLE!
listen, I JUST WANNA HAVING FUN. sorry for my fault. i know i usually hanged out with my friends, and go home not on time..

but, can you give me reason why you're not trust me? are you a liar when you were highschool or something? so why you said so?
hey asshole, i didn't wanna hurt daddy! but if i hurt you, its really MAKES me BETTER!

SO SMILE!!!

hahahaha, should you die or something,bro??
you've ruined my life, my time, my mood, my day. ALL THAT I MUST HAVE!
GO FIND YOUR OWN HOUSE. EVEN YOU'RE NOT MARRIED YET!
i'm sick of you!!!

the day that i never waiting

so fellas, im having my NATIONAL EXAMINATION. so tomorrow's the second day. and i fell so stress because its math! once again its MATH! im not really excited, im not ready for it. oh GOD, i know you'll bless me always. im sure i can do it well.

FUUUCCCKKKKKK..

i'm studying studying studying ARRGHHH

okay, lets borrow Richard's clothes

first this is Richard's jumper and Hat

JUMPER: topman
hat: unbranded


the second is,

shirt: TOPMAN
hat: TOPMAN

this shirt is topman too, he's stayed in Malaysia for 3 years. so he has so many kind of topman shirt or t-shirt or what the fuck is that

the third.
this is my Richard's futsal t-shirt. he loves futsal very much, and Manchester United. he usually used it when he was in Malaysia. for his futsal group.

shirt: UNBRANDED :)

so that's all. please dont tell Richard, LOVE YOU BROTHAAAAA!!! xxxx

even i forgot

hello, i just remember that my daddy havent give me a birthday present, so i realized how stupid i am for not going to JUSTIN BIEBER'S CONCERT IN SINGAPORE..
but its okay, i just nedd a new shoes, and bags. HAHA!

and this 7 of my WONDER SHOES..

ohmygod, PICK ONE PICK ONE!

and those are from "WONDER SHOE", a shoe shop i love!!!!! so many collection that i want to.

daddyyyyyyyyy, i beg you. i want one of them or maybe 2 :(

BUAT ORANG YANG UDAH NGOMONGIN AKU. READ THIS!!!

AKU GATAU MESTI BILANG APA, GAUSAH BERTELE TELE DEH SEKARANG. BUAT YANG NGERASA AJA, UDAH LAMA AKU PENGEN NGOMONG SAMA LO. TAPI KARENA KITA BENTAR LAGI BUKAN ANAK KELAS 3 SMP. BENTAR LAGI KITA MAU NGADAIN PERPISAHAN DAN KITA MASIH DALAM SATU KAWASAN SEKOLAH DAN PASTI SELALU BERPAPASAN. BENTAR LAGI KAN KITA UDAH GA SEKOLAH DISITU LAGI,WALAUPUN KITA TETEP SATU SEKOLAH PADA AKHIRNYA (KALO AKU MASUK) KITA JUGA GA BAKAL NGOMONG. SEMOGA AJA KITA GA SEKELAS, DAN LO TERSERAH DEH MAU DIKELAS MANA. GAPAPA KOK KALO AKU DI KELAS F, KARENA ANAK2 YANG SEKOLAH DISITU GA DIBEDA2IN PINTER MA NGGA NYA.

MUNGKIN SELAMA INI AKU TAU LO NGOMONGIN AKU DIBELAKANG. AKU JUGA PERNAH KARENA LO JUGA GA HABIS2 NYA NGOCEH. AKU CAPEK YA DIHINA2 MA LO. AKU CUMA DENGER ORANG KALO LO NGEJEK2IN AKU ATAU NGEHINA2 AKU DIBELAKANG. TO THE POINT AJA YA, AKU PERNAH NYEBUT NAMA KAMU, BUKAN BERMAKSUD NGEJEK ATAU APAPUN, MUNGKIN ITU AKU NGOMONG TENTANG KITA SATU KELOMPOK ATAU APALAH ITU. TIBA2 TUH ORANG YANG DENGER LANGSUNG NYEBUT NAMA LENGKAP LO, DAN BLG : "HAH *************?" DAN AKU JAWAB IYA TERUS TANYA KENAPA. DIA BLG, "ITU KAN YG CELANA O*AH*A*ANYA DI *****IN SUPAYA ***** NYA NAMPAK" AKU KAGET DAN GATAU MAU NGOMONG APA. SEDANGKAN AKU BARU KENAL ORANG ITU KENAPA BERITA LO HARUS NYEBAR KESANA KEMARI. TERKENAL LO YAH! KAYAK ARTIS BOKEP LO.

OKAY, LANGSUNG KE MASALAHNYA KNP AKU NGEPOST KAYAK GINI, AKU DENGER DARI SATU TEMEN KU GAPERLU TAU LO SIAPA ORANG NYA. LO BILANG KALO AKU "SUKA CIUMAN" KARENA NAPSUAN! HELLO AKU CIUM KARENA AKU SAYANG. DAN AKU GA PERNAH MULAI DULUAN KARENA AKU PACARAN SERIUS CUMA SATU KALI YAITU SAMA "ABRAHAM" WAKTU AKU PACARAN SAMA ORANG2 ITU AKU BELUM TAU APA2, BAYANGIN AKU PACARAN AMA ANAK 20 TAUN!

HEY KAU ***, SORRY KALO AKU NULIS KYK GINI, SIAPA SURUH TUH BIBIR GA BISA DI KUNCI DULU, NYADAR DULU YA WOI. NGACA!!!
LO UDAH CIUM BERAPA COWO JUGA? N LO SELINGKUH BERAPA KALI SIH YA? GATAU LAH ALESAN LO SELINGKUH ATAU BUKAN! LO UDAH PUNYA PACAR MASIH SMS-AN SAMA COWO2 LAIN, SAMPE ADA COWO YG BLG APA2 LAH *GAPERLU TAU MAKSUDNYA APA. GANYADAR YA??

TERSERAH MAU BILANG AKU RATU CIUMAN ATAU APA, AKU CIUMAN KARENA SAYANG. BUKAN KAYAK LO YG LANGSUNG NYANTEP BIBIR ORANG! AKU PUNYA COWO, DAN AKU GA PERNAH TUH SMSAN ATAU APALAH SAMA COWO LAIN YANG SAMPE KAYAK NGASIH HARAPAN KOSONG KE DIA! LO MATRE BANGET YA, SAMPE2 HARUS MINTA INI ITU. EMG BAPAK LO GABISA BELI YA? MALU2IN ORANG TUA LO. KATANYA KAYA, CIHH! MAU MANGGIL SIAPA LAGI LO BUAT NYAMPERIN GUE??? SELINGKUHAN LO?? ATAU PACAR LO YANG UDAH LO MAININ? BERAPA COWO ORG SIH YG LO REBUT2, SAMPE DI BUKU LO ADA TULISAN2 APA LAH ITU GAMAU NGASIH TAU! HEY, NYADAR NYADAR NYADAR! AKU TAU KOK AKU JUGA GA SEMPURNA! KASIAN LO

family is god creature

hello this friday was veeeeeeerrrrry fun. my family and i went to Barelang then off to Camp Vietnam, I ever visited there actually. so, we're only accompany my uncle and my aunt..

so this is the picture..





so i just new to her, and so do i. but we're family!
KAK CHRISTINE AND ANDAR




hey, this is my uncle and my aunt. (brother and my mom's sister) bataknist say TULANG AND NANTULANG

sadly, we're not going to the beach, because some of them will go to Singapore tomorrow. THEY'LL GET ILL! OMYGOD.
those are my pic with kak Nena (my brother's wife) on our way back to Batam.







yeah, that's all. after we finished taking pictures, we went to JJ collection. we bought parfumes ect. and you know what i bought this MONOL, i don't really like it. because so many people out there that using it, but it's cheap and the color looks expensive. haha



after that, We went to the money changer beside JJ Collection, wanna get dollars there. and the money changer is in a store of Parfumes, bags, shoes, ect. and you know what? i Bought this ..




it's cheap too, its about Rp. 25.000,- haha. it's cute right?

i love it, and so what??? are there any problems?

the best part is when we're BBQ-ing, is really a good night. once again its the night to remember.
so there's a girl that shocked when she saw me because i look so different and my hair is not curly like when i was child.
she told that i really love to sing a mexico song, and i speak so bataknist. i can't believe that fact. because i can't speak batak so clearly. just a bit. and the grammar i think is not good :)

i wanna tell you guys because of what this a night to remember, i can meet my family that i haven't met even though they ever met me when i was little girl. i called "FAMILY IS GOD CREATURE"